christmas is coming soon :)

dedicated to cassie

hey cassie!

be strong girl! take care of yourself k? don’t get sick!

hope you can eventually figure out a solution.

miss you. take care yea

cheers,
ade

wake up call

certain events that happened during my birthday gave me a good wake up call about friends. some friends can’t be bothered to appreciate help given. some friends can’t be bothered to appreciate you as a friend. maybe its better that these friendships are not mended. what my parents are telling me seems to have more truth, that there are no such thing as a true friend. eventually when we graduate, we’ll probably loose contact.

even when sending sms out to so many people about my party, i only got back two replies. its seems that i have fewer friends than i thought. maybe i should stop treating people so well and be more nasty.

i’m just glad i have a family that would always be standing by me.

mess

planning a birthday party is more difficult than i thought. especially when it comes to the guest list. i can’t make up my mind on the guest list. should i invite more people? can i manage that many guests? actually, everthing is almost settled EXCEPT the guest list. now,  i’m sending smses out like a mad woman just to confirm the guest list.

then it comes to the fact when some people don’t reply. idiots (but i’m gulity of that too…) i’ll just take it that they are not coming. then there’ll be some people who say that they’ll confirm with me again in which they most likely forget that this event even existed. i’ll take it that they’re not coming too..rar! and its not like i invited them the last minute. then, there’ll be the case where some people might feel offended if i did not invite them.

whatever~ at least i know that most of my good and closer friends will be there. the rest are just icing on the cake!

feel like i’m accomadating for so many people when its suppose to be my day :/

feel like its in a mess now

Life is too unfair. Life is too short.

a good friend of mine has just been admitted into the hospital and the diagnosis was that he has a brain tumor.

It took me a good 15 mins to absorb this fact. In fact, i still can’t believe that its him that has the brain tumor.

suddenly i realise that i’ll be on the verge of loosing a good friend.

went to the hospital after work to visit him yesterday. i could feel that he’s putting up a strong front. he told me that he has got absolutely no feeling on the right side of his face. The worst thing is that his tumor can’t be removed because its in a very dangerous position in the brain. the only thing doctors can do now is to insert a tube into the tumor to transfer the fluid out of the tumor. the chances of him having a coma or stroke after the operation are quite high.

his life just came to a screeching halt and i could see the sorrow in his parents face. especially his father.  

and after that he told me,” I’m sorry i can’t make it to your birthday party anymore…”

I really wanted to cry but i know i can’t, not in front of him.

Why him of all people?  Why brain tumor of all illnesses?

Life is too unfair. Life is too short.

His operation is at 8.30am tomorrow.

“Be strong…”

7th december

sent invitations on facebook look out for it

9 more weeks

attended qianny’s birthday celebration yesterday. the 2nd last birthday celebration in pano.

mine is coming up next hopefully… i really hope i can get the location settled asap.

tentatively on the 7th of december, Monday

hope everyone can make it.

9 more weeks

until next time,
cheerios~

in cold sweat

… i was a cold rainy night. Everyone stood tense as if waiting for a time bomb to explode. “Bang..”, as the windows came shattering down. Everyone ran to their hiding positions. I couldn’t help but to peek and I saw a shadowy figure in the middle of the room with a knife in his hand. Suddenly, he began walking towards my direction. I quickly curled up, burying my face between my legs and my chest. As if time had frozen, I looked up and there he was right in front of me. I screamed as he took the knife and slit my throat…

what a nightmare. i literally woke up in cold sweat on an sunday morning at 6am. and i couldn’t fall asleep after that. i thought this only happens in the movies. didn’t know it could appear in my dreams.. -_-”

i’m starting to feel the monday blues again

PMS

i haven’t been in the best of moods lately and i don’t know why. i think its pms. like how i got so fed up when my mum refuse to buy my breakfast for the next day and made me go all the way to lot 1 (when i could have just stopped right in front of my house)  just to buy my breakfast AFTER a long day’s work. and it was raining heavily (and yes, i’m still pissed about it)

i also got a little pissed at work when i suppose to do something but people are apparently too busy to help me. i know its not their fault because 2 of them were on mc and they were seriously short-handed. but i just didn’t like the feeling of being pushed around and that’s why i got pissed and walked off.

and the thought of studying the next sem scares me. heard from some of my friends that next sem is filled with projects. grouped lab reports, engineers and society etc etc.. i just hope that i have the right friends to do project with.

i decided to book the location for my 21st on one of the weekdays in December since I’m not one of the ”privileged” ones. 

feeling awfully pessimistic about everything :/

blah~

a glimpse

i realised that i have neglected my blog for a long time. yes. and its because blogger has been giving me so much problems. so i decided to convert to wordpress.

So many events have passed and i’m too lazy to update every event that has happened. but there’s this one thing that is so important.

yup. that’s my 21st. i know it comes as a surprise that i decided to hold it only two months later. but apparently my original plans were screwed up and the only time i can get a good location is prolly two months later. i also prefer December because its the time that everyone will be free and that i have ended my IA. yup. so peeps. mark this date on your calender.

IA has been.. well.. busy. don’t know if its a good or bad thing. I’m settling down quite well there. well. hope that all goes well for the remaining time left.

until next time,

cheerios~

P.S. i think wordpress is much better than blogger

P.S.S. I didn’t realise that i had comments made to my posts. sorry of i didn’t reply.